Things are different now at work, and it has nothing to do with the
fact that a few old friends have left and new employees have signed
on. It isn't a result of the new uniforms we are wearing now or the
new policies that have been put in place; the difference is in me. I
can see some things now that I probably would never have noticed
before had this intervention of sorts not taken place. I realize now
how tired I was, physically and emotionally, an exhaustion that
expressed itself in a lack of patience for others and a lack of
appreciation for the blessings that cover my life. Habitual ways of
doing things had me locked into a schedule and an outlook that had no
room for a new view. While I was successfully making it through my
days, I was living on a much lower scale than what God had planned
for my life. I am forever grateful for the upgrade into a higher
level of thinking and living that my arm injury provided.
But now the difficulty is in keeping the fresh outlook on things. I
knew coming in to work that if I wasn't careful, the novelty of being
back on the job would wear off, and it would be easy to slip back
into old ways of thinking and doing things; I didn't want to lose the
lessons of the past months. Awareness that such a danger exists is
perhaps the greatest asset in preventing its occurrence.
One of the biggest struggles I had in my physical recuperation was
maintaining the progress we achieved in my physical therapy sessions.
After an hour of work and manipulation, my therapist was always able
to open my arm to a degree that I hadn't been able to achieve before.
We just weren't able to maintain that success; the muscles in my arm
wanted to pull back into the position they'd been in for so long. At
each session we seemed to start off back at the same point; it was
hard to gain ground.
Finally we made progress when Nick came up with the idea of locking
my arm in the straight position in the brace at the end of the
session, when it had opened up has far as he could get it to go. For
two hours I kept it in “lockdown”, after which I was free
to remove the hardware and let my arm function without it. In
addition I became more intentional than ever in keeping up with the
stretching exercises I was doing at home, and gradually we have seen
the muscles become accustomed to increased motion and function once
more.
Similarly, my new mindset and approach to life and my job can only be
maintained through diligent effort on my part. I am grateful for the
Challenge of writing the lessons down, because doing so has locked
them down not just on paper where I can regularly
review them, but also in my mind. But I have to
intentionally practice the new ways of thinking and doing to make
them the new norm and prevent my mind from slipping into old mindsets
without my being aware that it is even happening.
Mostly I am overwhelmed with gratitude, that God knew what I needed
when I was blind to it myself, and used the opportunity my injury
afforded to elbow His way into my life, restoring not just my arm,
but also my mind and heart.
“But
be doers of the word, and not hearers only...”
(James
1:22 NKJV)
It sounds like God has taught you so much through your injury. I love how God uses our toughest trials to make us stronger. I also must learn to remain diligent in keeping a positive mindset on life.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on making it through A to Z! Even though you weren't officially participating, I have enjoyed meeting you through the challenge and look forward to your future posts :)